It's my wedding anniversary today. I have a t shirt I made up that has a logo of a wedding ring hand and it says below it "I'm the happiest husband in the world". The question is, can I wear that today? I am so grateful for the years I lived by Karen's side as her husband. She was my 4 leaf clover. I used to have a 4 leaf clover when I was a kid. They are so very rare: 1 in 10,000, and I found one! So now I live without her, and it's hard to navigate life in many ways. I thought that, today, I would leave work early and go out to Spud Point, get that amazing clam chowder that we both loved so, park on the coast where we always parked, and watch the ocean. Karen LOVED the ocean. I will sit there alone, not because I need to feel sorry for myself, but because I just can't fill that spot beside me that she once occupied with someone else. This may make me cry, probably, and that will be good. Love can't always be happy, but I certainly don't want to forget when it was
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