3 years now. Kinda get used to it, but never really do. The memory of the happy marriage is like a tattoo: It's not coming off. I have...

I cycle a fair amount these days. I live in Sonoma County, and it is beautiful. Most of the time the weather suits cycling. I like riding...

A wise older widow said this to me, "living without your spouse doesn't get easier, it gets harder". At the time, that seemed crazy. The...

I miss her. I miss being loved by her. Without her love, my faults have merciless clarity. I couldn't help but notice that, in the book...

I had to clean the front porch. Painful. Painful because that was my Beloved's place of refuge. I live in a mobile home park, and the...

It dawned on me how really fitting it is to compare the process of loss to the eruption of a volcano. When a volcano erupts, it is both...

I have reached a new phase of the widower's life: Couple Envy. My friend and his wife were at my shop. After they walked out the door, I...

I have a saying: empathy has an expiration date. Living life without your spouse can be confusing because of this. It is a constant theme...

As time moves forward, questions begin to boil to the surface. Is it OK not to move on with everyone else? Is it OK to leave things just...

It's my wedding anniversary today. I have a t shirt I made up that has a logo of a wedding ring hand and it says below it "I'm the...

It's a harsh reality these days: the memories of my Beloved have lost their sharpness. It has become increasingly difficult to capture...

I have just passed the anniversary of my Beloved's departure. It is a significant event. That first year of living as a widow/widower...

It's been a little over a year since my Beloved traveled on to the next life, living me behind. After I short while after she was gone, I...

(This entry was looking for a place to land for nearly a year) June 8, 2018 Welcome to my blog. I would have never done this, considering...